A specific invitation to be part of the family, to join the club, to play on the team, to be one of the gang, or, in other words, to be accepted, depends on those others reaching out and specifically incliuding you. Those who truly belong, who know in their hearts, minds, viscera, that they are part of the social group, do not have the strong longing for inclusion that the outsider experiences. While exclusion from one clique or group may be trivial, when there are many others that are more-or-less equally satisfactory, that exclusion is not as severe as when the group involved is family, long-lasting friendships, ongoing connections on which so many people rely for their comfort, identity, sense of normalcy, sense of belonging, and more.
While everyone has (or should have had) at least one powerful experience of being kept outside, excluded, found undesirable by some group of people with whom he wishes he could be a part, the impact of this exclusion is relatively trivial when compared against fundamental components important to the human society in which one finds oneself.
When the ancient Greeks sent someone into exile, they imposed on that person one of the most horrible, frightening, damaging punishments possible. How could a political entity force one of its number to leave, to be totally and forever cut off from it? Exile leaves a person bereft of the connections built over many, many years, particularly within an inimate polis, city state, neighborhood, clan, tribe, or family. They are all broken by exile. The sorrow of loss of connection belongs not only to the exiled, but to everyone who loses the connection with that person.
Similarly, every family that disowns a Gay/Lesbian/Bi/Trans member, punishes not only that member but everyone in the family who loved her or him -- homophobia destroys connections developed in love over time on both sides of the divide imposed by that exclusion. Even in the "worst" of families, where roles are rigid, stereotypes policed carefully, hypocrisy well ingrained, and violence employed, there is the power of connection, of love between parent and child, among siblings, between friends, peers, co-workers, and those who are (in truth as well as in law) married. While we may say to the hyper-homophobic family, "Good riddance!", that masks the fact that there has been some important loss for the one who, once an Insider, is forced to become an Outsider, and for every other family member who cared about the excluded.
Homophobia never accomplishes the goal of punishing the person who is different without also punishing others who have feelings for the person or, if not that, at least others who have enjoyed the value of that person's being part of the group. What value? The value from sharing labor, participating in the group's culture, spending time together, physical contact (if only mother/child), is lost - there is always something for the group to lose when it excludes one of its number. True, people are kicked out of families for many reasons beyond being "Queer," but often those reasons are "good" compared with the "reasons" for excluding the "Queer." The violent, thieving, dishonest, murderous, dangerous member of a community may be found out and forced out as punishment, but the "Queer" who's similarly thrown out, often with greater anathema, force, and hatred expressed, most often has done nothing to harm others, to subvert the fundamental reasons the group exists, except perhaps to express the personality and one's love in a genuine way, not pretending to be someone she or he is not - and cannot be.
We have all had the experience of being excluded. We have all participated in the action of excluding someone. The taste of these things is familiar to everyone. To the "Queer" who's excluded, however, the experience is doubled and redoubled, squared, then amplified to the 100th power and cannot be equated with ordinary, day-to-day exclusions of everyone's experience. The hatred, the evil that accompanies the homophobic response to a group member is so strong that it drives most of us to do everything possible to avoid that breach, to hide, to live outside our truth, to live the double life, or to renounce and fail to be who we are, for most if not all of our lives.
When it happens, there is no reconciliation possible - the best advice for one who is tossed out of one's family for being "Queer" is simple: "RUN!"
That they have not killed you yet is a blessing. They have done everything so far to kill that part of you that is "Queer," by repressing, hiding, denying, ignoring, threatening, and so forth - every single method of influence is used to make and keep us heterosexual - every method of influencing us has been used to this end from the moment of birth, and often before! That our resistance to these influences is so fundamental, so powerful, so irresistible should show us not the power of our perversity, the strength of the "Devil's hold" on us, or anything else but the fact that the impetus to be oneself almost always is so strong - coming from Nature as it does - that we struggle against the overwhelming message of our society - coming from human design as it does - despite the dire consequences that await: persecution, extraordinary effort to change us, anger, hatred, and finally, cutting us off completely, whether through exile or death.
How can anyone argue that homosexuality (and its variants) does not come from Nature when, despite being pressed to be heterosexual in every way by the ongoing "24/7" efforts of our families, schools, social groups, mass media, and every other form of influence on us from birth onward, so many of us resist and stand up against those influences and choose to be ourselves, the "Queer" who can be accepted (by those whose humanity is well developed, realistic, and therefore inclusive) or who simply must be excluded, ousted, forgotten, perhaps destroyed? If being Queer is so powerfully evident, how can an attentive, learning society do anything but find its value for everyone and embrace it for the blessing to society that it surely is - or could be?
What is the engine that drives homophobia to be so destructive?
(I have a few ideas about this which will come out in subsequent postings.)
--Seattle, Washington, on a sunny Saturday, the 15th of May, 2009